Sure, breakups hurt, but it seems that it hurts me more because it seems like to me he's rubbing it in my face all the time, now he has a new girlfriend.
While I did care a lot about him, it just never came to love.
Is it possible that his feelings for you were a little stronger than yours for him? I am almost 40 and I know it's immature as all hell, but I really have to fight the urge to throw my new (younger) girlfriend in my old girlfriend's face. Had it been the other way around, I would feel differently.
I'm over her but there's still residual bitterness. Then again, it's also very possible that it has nothing to do with you.
It was a very dysfunctional relationship and I do own my mistakes in it.
I never felt safe with him and always had this feeling I was his house maid / mom.However, he keeps telling our group his "adventures" through obvious memes.Dropping obvious hints to indicate he has a valentine's date.Now I just see it as him going after me indirectly to just make me feel jealous or something.My close friend even said that he's kinda being a douche bag to me to message these kinds of stuff in a group.Which, in a way, is a comforting thought that I'm not in this alone.Reading books about Buddhism helped me a lot with resolving and accepting my inner conflicted feelings of regret, confusion, anger, sadness and hurt wrt to education choices, career choices and past failed relationships. With regards to self improvement, but somehow..only took this annoying (being emotional here) good for nothing ex 1 lousy minute to mess up my inner peace by messaging three sentences wrt relationships/dating with no context AT ALL.So don't understand why this whole break up is just so hard for me, even after almost 6 months. My problem is, I'm still stuck with him because we're in the same friends group.We have a group chat where we message each other goofy things.This guy pushes my buttons in so many ways, while I should be totally indifferent.I am doing something wrong here wrt applying mindfulness in my life It's normal to feel some jealousy when your ex finds someone new, even if you didn't want to be with that person anymore.